Sweet precision

Making me think twice.

2012-02-27T03:10:00.002+08:00

Life never stopped fucking me up this year. It's just a shit-hole that builds up.
As I grow to learn more about myself and that other half, the differences has become my problem.
An issue so huge that I cannot come to a solution.
Yes, it's two sided, but this is what I feel.

The little things or actions that matters but all these gestures have come to an end.
It's become such a burden that it didn't seem to affect you anymore.
Those sweet gestures were once what you made it seem promising.
The endurance of all the rejections that made you stronger and more certain.
That hunger to get from just someone worthless to someone so significant.
It all took you relentless efforts to break that barrier - that barrier to prove me wrong.
I fell; and I did so with all my heart.

Little gestures, they stopped.
Incidents that occur, they made me doubt myself; and sometimes, even you.
Fallback, they taught me what I should have done.
Lessons learnt, they reminded me how important you are.

Seemed like it was almost one sided, recently.
Give. Giving is not all, what do you take back?
I've always wondered if you appreciated the things I did for you.
Wondered, when will you see that I intended well?
You love me as much as you say you do, but do nothing to show it?

It has been tiring; for you have chased for so long.
But it's also tiring, to have spent hours waiting and waiting.
Wait. Has that ever happened to you?
Waiting for an endless race?
Just a simple reply, or an initiative to take time out to be earlier - to wait for me?

Reactions have changed. You have your problems too.
I'm no longer that significant. Your hunger; it has been satisfied.
You're done with what I had to offer. The endless race was coming to an end.
Nothing seem to be going right. All I could was keep going forward while looking back.
Anticipating for the fresher days we had, what once seem to be envied by all.

No regrets. We know what we had going on, but we wouldn't know how it will be.
Living in the past is not something to be doing but living in the present is.
But, have you forgotten how I, once, was all you wanted?
The way you'll embrace me each time we met?
It all seem to be fading from you, while I give them back.

You stopped doing things for me. Your affections are what, now seem so weak.
I believe that if I keep giving my all, I'll be appreciated.
Until that day comes, I'll continue doing my best.

Do you see me the way I look at you? That happiness each time I stared into your eyes.
Admiring you as you sat solemnly when we ran out of topics.
Turning from what seem like your flaws, to what only meant perfection.
I've lost you; someday when I pissed you off.

Loosing faith.

Take a deep breadth.

2012-02-24T01:55:00.003+08:00

I shall try my best to make an effort to blog more this year!
First year is officially going to end come Monday.
Getting results on 20th March and yep, pretty much an entire year is gone!

Hopefully Year 2's syllabus won't be too tough!
Having modules like Travel and Tourism Practice, Business Law (omg), F&B Management and some others!
Sounds super interesting and so looking forward to them!
But hoping they aren't tough..... mmm.
Immersion Programme soon! Can't wait for it either!

As much as second year seems promising, I'm definitely not looking forward to school reopening.
Just want to have holidays and holidays and holidays!
Gen-Ed 2, I want awesome classmates again! *plsplsplspls*

2012 hasn't been the best year I've ever had and nothing seems to go right.
The best will come... soon!

Last paper. LEGGO!

Older again.

2012-02-22T11:11:00.015+08:00

Strong urge to blog two days ago; of all the emotions that have built up over the past few months.
The pain, wishes that don't come true and a whole series of other occurrences.
But again, the saying goes "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger".
I think being all emo and shit makes me do self reflections more and more.
Each time that I look into something that causes me misery and pain, I think more of what should have been done.
Life is such a bitch sometimes.

Fears that constantly haunt me has always been such an issue for me.
Insecurities. Pain. Worries.
Getting more sensitive that I've put on some extra weight; mainly due to one person.
Life.

Looking at the bright side, year 1 in poly is officially over since 2 weeks ago!
Ended the last day of school with a fun presentation, camwhoring in class and then celebrating Leslie's birthday.
It's sad to see how first year came by as so fun and now it's gone. All the awesome teachers we had..
Mr George is probably one of the best teachers ever!

Made us all bolder than we already are. Fun and exciting lessons each time. :)
Luckily there isn't going to be a change of classes for 3 years.
Meeting new people, again.
Making project group, again.
Familiarizing with classmates, again.
And so much more, if you get what I mean. Hm, I'm not that sociable, I know.

Class shot!

DTRM 04 AY 2011/2012 + Jia Hao

Not forgetting Ms Sylvia whom has been such an awesome accounts teacher the whole year!
LOVE HER.

Celebrating Leslie's birthday that night, making him at a total loss for word!
Trolling him when surprising him with his "cake" as well! Haha.

"Heard that you didn't want a cake.... PROBLEM?"
Epic moments bringing him to Aston's. Then Orgo after that where Nat was totally hilarious!
Great night.

Following week, had Nihon Mura buffet on Valentine's and it's crazy considering that I can't eat much at night now.
Stuffing myself with raw salmon and sushi and all things awesome!
Note to self: Buffet only for lunch!
Night buffets are totally not worth the price.

Next day, I was a year older too. I really felt a lot older now. Literally.
Growing up each year never seem to be such a problem until it hit me that I'm legal.
And the constant wishes reminding me that I'm legal. Turning into a young adult.
It was so real. They say, you'll wish to stay a teenager for ever; how true.
However, had the best birthday celebrations ever!
Poly mates, my girls and coming would be my babies since 11! Teehee.
Really thankful for all my friends.

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I'll be back with more... soon!

2012!

2012-01-01T17:05:00.003+08:00

It's a brand new year and a brand new start!
I couldn't thank God more for the people who are always there for me.
The times that I feel so bad, they come in miraculously and fix me up.
Many resolutions this year and hopefully I can achieve it! Hwaiting!

To everyone out there, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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Festive Season!

2011-12-12T10:22:00.004+08:00

So far, half a Sem is gone and I'm pretty sure everyone's going into the holiday mood!
I thought I'd give a little post this time round since I'm really free!

Duet by Mariah Carey and Justin Bieber ♥♥♥

Wishing to go for another Bieber concert in my life! Still as mesmerized as before! :)

Completion of the mid-sem test last week, third day of holiday and it alr felt like forever!
Probably because I've been treating everyday like a holiday. I love school! :)
Can't wait to start work with Nat and Julee, but the stupid Suntec seems to be playing with us.

I always lose the feeling to blog after a while and this feeling sucks.
Anyhow, 12th day of gifting from Starbucks today is another 1 for 1! :)

Gna go grab myself a cup with Kim later!
Hopefully there won't be a long queue!
Food Club chalet later in the afternoon but doubt I'm gna get any pictures there.
No awkward moment...mm.

So many things going on this week and idk where to begin!
The boy is working at some grill bar for 12 hours a day and I barely have any time to spend with him.
At least for now it's only 3 days a week. I need to get started on work....
Fruitful holidays ahead!

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You're a Firework.

2011-11-15T19:01:00.008+08:00

It's been 162 days since I blogged. HAHA.
Okay, I know I don't have to be that specific.

Anyhow............
Sem 1 has ended and it's alr 5th week into Sem 2! :)
First year would pass by real quickly!

For the past 5 months, so much has happened and there really is no word that I can relate all these together!
Finishing Sem 1 was the best thing ever. But of course, school doesn't just stop there.
Nonetheless, so many events that happened and all there really is to it are pictures. :)
Been up so high, and down so low that no emotions can say it all.
Obviously I'd do a private post for all my unhappiness. After all, "Trust no one but yourself."
How true that is? God only knows.

But ohyeah, pictures! :)

With love, x

You are mine, always.

2011-06-06T10:54:00.002+08:00

I've set my mind to blog, but I'm really lazy to do so.
Pictures and everything are such a hassle to load and I take a really long time to do a proper post!

Since my last post, I've finally got my BB white, babies!
Laptop is under maintenance.
Successfully surprised Angie with a lot of sweat!
Impromptu stayover, to mahjong and just wasting a night away.
Fun fun fun fun!